Hellhole

Down and down, I spiral;

I’m out of control,

I feel myself falling

into a gaping, black hole.

And who can save me?

There is no safety net;

my thoughts, they consume me,

why can’t I forget?

I want to be happy,

I crave it so much

but depression, it envelops me

with its cold, devil’s touch.

One day, I will fight this,

and leave it behind;

until then, I will suffer

in the hellhole of my mind.

Writer’s Block #2

I haven’t posted much recently, as you may have noticed. I’m not in the best of places right now. There is so much in my life that I am unhappy with, and although I am trying hard to change certain things, it just isn’t happening for me. Given time, I’m sure it will, but it will be hard work, and there is no option of a quick fix. I can feel myself becoming more and more disillusioned by the day, and I’m slowly spiralling down into a pit of despair. My life desperately needs to change, but I am beginning to doubt my own choices. I have taken so many wrong turns. It would be nice to have someone show me the way, but I am aware that only I can do that. 

So, until I am feeling more myself, I just don’t have the energy or the inclination to write, here or anywhere else. Hopefully this will change in the near future.

Thank you for following my blog. 💜

Italian Spaghetti Sauce With Meatballs


I’m going to be trying the below recipe for dinner, so thought I’d post it here on my blog in the absence of anything better. Yes, I know I have posted a pasta meatball recipe previously. However, I’m trying to find a recipe that suits me, isn’t too difficult to throw together, and also tastes great. Plus, my son loves pasta, and as I only cook for the two of us, I like to create dishes I know that he will like instead of slaving over something he will turn his nose up at.
So here goes…

Ingredients.
MEATBALLS 

1 pound lean ground beef                  1 cup fresh bread crumbs                   1 tablespoon dried parsley                  1 tablespoon grated Parmesan cheese                                                  1/4 teaspoon ground black pepper 1/8 teaspoon garlic powder                1 egg, beaten 

SAUCE 

3/4 cup chopped onion                        5 cloves garlic, minced                      1/4 cup olive oil                                     2 (28 ounce) cans whole peeled tomatoes                                                 2 teaspoons salt                                     1 teaspoon white sugar                       1 bay leaf                                                 1 (6 ounce) can tomato paste           3/4 teaspoon dried basil                   1/2 teaspoon ground black pepper 

Directions

Prep – 20 m

Cook – 2 h

Ready In – 2 h 20 m

In a large bowl, combine ground beef, bread crumbs, parsley, Parmesan, 1/4 teaspoon black pepper, garlic powder and beaten egg. Mix well and form into 12 balls. Store, covered, in refrigerator until needed.

In a large saucepan over medium heat, saute onion and garlic in olive oil until onion is translucent. Stir in tomatoes, salt, sugar and bay leaf. Cover, reduce heat to low, and simmer 90 minutes. Stir in tomato paste, basil, 1/2 teaspoon pepper and meatballs and simmer 30 minutes more. Serve with cooked pasta.